Remember how I just laughed about an advertisement on the radio about the opportunity to receive texts with words of inspiration from the Pope? Well, Globe sent me an ad a few days ago that, to me, was a sign of the beautiful progress of advertising. The message goes like this:
STARWARS: Let Yoda guide u thru life & get a chance to win P50,000 dis week! Get daily Words of the Wise. Reply ON WISE now!(P2.50/txt) Reply NO to stop alerts
People would do anything to get other people to give them money. But this is just ridiculous.
Enough of that. As I learned from the very educational show named The Simpsons, today used to be celebrated by pagans as the start of the year. Then the Christians back then knew their ungodly neighbors were wrong, so they called them (in an unChristian reflex, may I add) fools. In other words, the people who knew better called the rest of the public fools.
Somehow, someone out there is calling me a fool for not knowing better when it comes to two of the more significant people in my life. I realized this only now because back then I was in an uncompromising state of mind (is 'bewildered' a word for angry and confused?). Thank God I'm a lot better now, and compromise is on my mind; First, since it's just the right thing to do, Second, because I just can't imagine these two people leaving my life without a reason, and Third, I want to make up for being a fool.
I've been a fool. Why? Because I drank a few beers and got pissed at Michelle for being intolerably schizophrenic. See, that time she was two people at one time: A really nice girl who seems to show much appreciation for me, and a girl trying to be a guy thinking that cynical hostility and obnoxious jeering is key. I wasn't drunk, and now I claim responsibility for being irrational and one-sided. I thought of something today:
Red can't be blue...
Black can't be white...
Girls can't be boys...
Steroid monkeys can't be Californian Governors....
Holy shit, hold up.
I figure that sooner or later things will change for the better, and when they do I don't want to be the biased jackass who walked away a long time ago. The partial un-fooling of Joseph Brent Lardizabal starts tonight. I got a script all my head full of lines to beat myself up for the purpose of her realizing my point. Ahh, vintage lessons from my father. Like I keep saying, my dad's a genius. Oh, and keep the tally up, If I had my own personal Mecca, it would be Brent Baguio.
Okay. I say it again: I've been a fool. Why? Because mental torture and anguish led me to already walk away from Andreia, the girl with the amazing multiple-entry Visa and the equally amazing pop-up kid. All this time I thought I was a step ahead of her, finding loopholes in the reasons she has. I was wrong. I fell into her trap, and I was the one who walked away; Less hassle, yet more separation anxiety (for me, at least). Now that I think of it, I was stupid way, way back in pathetically forcing myself into her life through text messaging.
I can summarize everything that happened right now. I remember that during this time I definitely knew what I had and took it for granted. So when what I had started walking away I was filled with precognitive regret and an overzealous urge to make up for the crap I did. Since then, she had the upper hand... But little old me persisted until she came up with two ploys in desperation to escape from the changed, less respectful and more paranoid man I became that led me to countless disasters. In other words, she thought to fight fire with fire, or in this case, she fought stupid with stupid. Now, she's an emotional genius to me, one that's unfortunately far far away.
Now, after approximately 4 months, I finally realized what I must do concerning her: She may be far away literally and theoretically for love to exist, but friendship can fill in that gap easily.
As I recall, I mentioned in a blog long long time ago a line from my Eddie-Guerrero lookalike uncle: Never burn bridges.
The un-fooling continues. Tomorrow is Andreia's birthday. I've got a proposal for us to repair that bridge. I just wish she had the same number. :D
Ladies and Gentlemen, Happy April Fools' Day.